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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 02:14

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Ive learnt so much.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My family never makes their pension either.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was scared of men, in general

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I have no regrets .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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I waited trembling.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

What are you wearing under your clothes today?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

So, i spoilt her more .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why does Christianity push reconciliation after a partner cheats? Mine had a 7-year affair with someone half my age. He cheated and lied. He is not the same to me.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But, we were locked up after school.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

What was Easter day like for you as a child?

She loved him until the end.

This is soul school!.

I was very sick at this time too.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Who then, do I blame.?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She married twice! .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was 9 years of age.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

When she asked me how she looked .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We all went to grammer schools

I did it because my mum asked me too!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

All the time i was locked up.

One cannot live in the past .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I said to her

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Would this be the day?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My life is so biszare .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She found it foreign!.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I don,t even have a pension.

Put me off passion for life!!

And i lived it daily.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

What did i know ?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I write beautiful poetry .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We were not on the streets..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But it wasn’t much.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She wouldn,t have been !

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

It was going to be , some day.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I will be 64.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I think the readers, may guess!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

So whats the point in blame.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As i do to all so called friends.?

He knew the spot.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im still living with it.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She was in good health!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I was seconnd youngest,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Comes on , in middle age.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.